Me: Broke Down on the Side of the Road

I’ve been insanely busy as of late. Being pulled in 1,000 different directions and doing my very best to manage it all. I knew when it all ramped up that there would be a breaking point. Today was that day. Here we are at 8:30 in the evening and I’m sitting here, going over the past couple weeks, trying to figure out what went wrong, when it started to go wrong and how I can fix it going forward.

I’m an owner. If something is wrong and I had even a finger in the pot I’ll own it. Always will. Even if it has nothing to do with me. I’m going to be the one stepping up and taking the bullet. Probably not the best game plan ever but it’s just the kind of person I am. I’d rather get it out of the way and start the discussion on what I’m doing to fix it.

To me, it makes no sense to dwell on the past. If something isn’t working I adjust, refocus and hit the ground running. It doesn’t make sense to me to beat the dead horse. It’s already dead so why keep on going on about it. The more constructive way and decision is to turn around and go the other way. The better way.

I think I’ve got to make the conscious decision to cut people out of my life who constantly seek to bring me down and hack away at me. I mean seriously, who are we as human beings to look at someone else and talk down to them? Demand unreasonable and out of this world things from them? Just overall be a complete asshole to them? You’ve got no business in my life and I’ve just about enough of it.

That being said, as of right now I’m turning over this new leaf. If you’re going to be a positive and honest influence in my life you’re good to go. If you’re planning on being a constant thorn in my side you’ll find yourself being the one broke down on the side of the road without me there to help you out.

On a lighter note, I’m going to meditate for the first time in a long time tonight in the hopes that it helps me wake up in the morning with a clear head, ready to greet the day.